Now I don’t rest, I stay alert Peace feels fake like it could hurt Every room I count the doors Every calm feels like before When someone’s close I pull away I don’t believe the words they say I learned the hard way what to hold You don’t feel warm when you grow cold.
I was a kid, I didn’t know What was normal inside that home I stayed quiet, I stayed low I learned early on my own I learned how to stay small How to freeze when I heard the walls How to never ask at all How to disappear down the hall